Boats & Birds

goodbye red dot, see you next year. {:

2009-12-27T12:47:01Z

in just about another 10 hours, i'd be well on my way out of this tiny island on a plane that'd take me out into the worldddd!
dont it sound just like im leaving Singapore for good to see the world or something adventurous and awesomeee? bleah. one can dream aye. but for now, i AM leaving this god-forsaken place where dreams are merely fantastical but nowhere close to reality, to escape to the west! well, at least for 3 whole weeks. {:
though i'd rather be heading over to Europe, i reckon i should appreciate that i actually get to travel to the States with my friends. so bring the Winter on, im ready for Disneyland, shopping sprees, salesalesales, Skull Candy headphones(!) and all that is to come. before that, God keep us safe and sane on our flight(s) there and back. to the rest of you, i'd see you soon and HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

Merry Christmas. [:

2009-12-25T07:21:40Z

enough of the upsetting stuff from my previous entries for now.
these always make me happy. {:

val your favourite nichkhun. {:

haha Key the diva. {:

the crazily cute Taemin baby. lol.

JongHyun looking sassy with the bag. haha.

Key has the most retarded expressions ever i swear. haha.

haha. i love. <3!

ebb and flow.

2009-12-24T03:50:59Z

ive been meaning to write an entry about peer pressure, and the losing of friends & respect and whatever things in between but have never gotten around to doing it. hell, i dont even know where to start. but dont say i didnt give you a heads up beforehand-i reckon my insecurities play a pretty big part, as usual. ~~[im heading out in a bit. will expand on this whole issue again next time].~~

ah fuck it. i cant be bothered.

back for 7 days!

2009-12-21T16:11:15Z

im backkkk. like anybody cares anyways. lol. quick update. my eljay seem to be lacking in words and im not quite sure i like that. well, the cruise wasnt exactly all that fun. but my mom was super excited about it, cant be a wet blanket. (A) it was basically just us, spending the entire day eating and eating, and eating. no kid! there wasnt much to do on board. i mean line-dancing, karaoke, uber mini 'golf course', a small rock wall.. the activities are all either for the middle-aged and above/ kids 10 years and below. there wasnt many teenagers really. so most of the time, we''d spend walking around the vessel/ in our room getting ready/ eating and eating and eating, buffet after buffet. the aftermath? me being at my highest weight in my entire life ever. =/// eurgh. kimberlyyy, let's go gym/ play netball please!!!

i should be turning in soon i reckon. gonna have to get my jab tomorrow and meet aline after that. dental the day after followed by drinks at night(?) with the girls. Christmas-eve and Christmas-no plans. 2 more days and then we're off to Los Angeles to freeze my arse off in the snow. cant wait. {:

cruise.

2009-12-17T17:34:31Z

gone tomorrow. be back in 4 days.

TPJC Promenade 2009

2009-12-15T07:21:52Z

so we've officially graduated from Junior College on the 9th of December. no more EDB block mix-ups. no more freezing my arse off in the 4 lecture theatres/ Auditorium. no more duties as a Student Councilor. no more stoning at my favourite spot above the canteen. no more bubbling opposite school. no more PE lessons. no more council/ orientation camps with awesome people. no more crossing of our school's very own TPE. no more A Levels! and well, i guess im supposed to be happy to be out of this school after 2 long years of gruelling tutorials lectures faculty tests and examinations. yet seeing how horrible i am at dealing with change, a part of me dreads having to move on to the next phase of my life. =/ BUT! leaving that asideeee. from now till then, i suppose we're supposed to take these 7/8 months of free-time by storm and do whatever the heck we've been longing to do whilst we were mugging out arses off. so let loose peopleeeee. you cant repress the repressed. {:
anyway, photo spam ahead!!! :D

Ely - A03's mama. {:

Ben

Regine the muffin! {:

Alicia the ahma! Jia Jia the ballerina. [:

Jolene the mouse. Pamo the whacko?

08A03. the number of missing people in this photo can form another class on its own. lol. Yi Ou, Fang Fang, Sheena, Jia Jia, Ben, Shahidah, Hani, Claudia, Asyura, Fathiah. erm. am i mean to not include Joshua? LOL.

Edmond, my Eagles Family Head!

Yong Liang the shortayeee. [dont kill me!] haha.

Melvin Tan the serious. lol. Melissa the nice!

Nathan the president. lol. Wendy the little loanshark. {:

Jerome the pussy. HAH. [okay i kid. lol] Livert the techy.

Akram the sometime-serious-sometime-spastic. lol. Eugin the other techy.

Xuan Jie, one of the 3 look-alikes in the 24th SC!

Kim Kim, the one that looks like a bear. haha.

Paul Vin the tall volleyballer with the cool name. lol.

Stephanie the senior prefect in HSC!

Daniel and Jamie, the night-study people. <3

Mag, the can-be-very-quiet-but-can-also-be-super-loud super cute smarty-pants i wouldn't have been friends with if not for Math tuition. [:

Daryl the nice-guy + Volleyball captain who wouldnt have had the 'mystery' behind Minesweepers figured out if not for me. {: haha.

Hanrey my powerful life-saving OGL of the Eagles family!

Kai Fan, the one i actually got to know through FB. lol.

Kun Wei, Alsyaa(w)i's clowning partner during Geography. haha.

Seok Khern, really nice friend of Jia Jia's! [:

Wilson, Wendy Lee's favourite Geography student. lol.

Alsyaari the Track captain who cant pronounce 'R's! Bryan my 'eyes are the windows to a person's soul' + random-talks-during-Chinese-class friend. hah.

i only know him as the guy who got tagged as Welly on FB but doesn't own a FB account. lol. Roo Kiat, the one idk either except that he's never seen a corset before.

omfg i forgot his name(!) with the manager smile and erm, guy idk who. =/

Carine. Cheryl the one who draws well during Geography!

Hanies the one with a model's body. Ji Cheng the girl with the funny laughter!

Joel the volleyballer. Mabel the innocent one.

Amandamandamanda Ong Kai Qi, my most retarded Vice-Captain for Netball in both Hai Sing and TPJC!!! Nasstasha, my fellow model for TPJC Runway. [:

Naz, one of my first few friends at TPJ. Sam Lee, the one i know through CFC.

Shahrin the Prom King nominee i got to know thorugh FB also. haha. Visa the crazy-tall skinny guy who's trying to bulk up but seem to stay amazingly skinny! hah.

Zachary, friend of Claudia's. [:

Steffi, Kim, Fefe; my favourite bunch of crazy girls in college. <3

Nisa, Lenny, me, Kim, superrrrr pretty XinYi, Ji Cheng, Fefe.

with Donna the diva! [:

Carine and friends all looking good in black.

with Zul, my 'coach' for TPJC Runway. haha.

half-table photo with small-faced Suren. haha.

Boon How my primary school mate who pops out of nowhere; at my Council Investiture and now, Prom. haha. and erm, pardon my unglam-ness. lol.

The End. [:

just another weird dream.

2009-12-12T09:54:09Z

ive been having weird dreams lately. a bunch of them in a single night actually! lol. from what i remember, there was 2PM, Daryl, results and the beach? lol.

the one with 2PM was initially oh-so-good. we were at some place and i was sitting in a high chair or something with my arms around my favourite Ok Taecyeon(!) who was standing in front of me. we were just talking. it was so niceee. i remember thinking that Val would be sooo envious to know i'd hung out with 2PM [including her fav Nichkhun!] haha. and then next thing i knew i was with someone idk who at the beach. the waves were crazy and so was this mountain of sand i was hiding behind. LOL. and then we found 2PM so we went to talk to them. everyone was extremely hostile. i remember being so so so upset while they were going on about how they hate how they are and they blame the fans for making them who they are. it was such a queer thing to dream about really. (N) i think it's my <3 for 2PM + the after-effects of watching the mutants in The Hills Have Eyes that resulted in this weird dream. either way, i really only enjoyed the first part. haha.

and then i dreamt that we'd received our A Level results on this piece of paper that wasn't like. result-slip-worthy if you get what i mean. i had Es and Ds. no As nor Bs nor Cs at all. so sp upset. then Daryl appeared out of nowhere and asked if i wanted to go over to his place with Matthias to play Rock Band or something godknowswhat. so random! and then my head was on his shoulder and i remember thinking [in my dream] how weird this was. in my dream, i was sure i was dreaming. HAHA.

but yeah. weird dreams come one after the other. its just so. idk. weird. lol.

Langkawi 2008

2009-12-05T17:08:56Z

here're pictures from our previous vacation to Langkawi that i've been meaning to post since foreverrr. now that A levels are no more, im gonna quit putting this off and post it up before i get more. there're tons more but im just gonna post up these 'few'. {:

and then came Eagle-feeding timeee.

identify and describe the landform above. LOL

one of the very rare family photos we have with Olivia in it. lol.

food was gooddd. camwhored while waiting for Dad to settle the sight-seeing stuff. lol.

i scooped a fish up. {:

and so did my dad. haha

but i guess my cousin didnt want to do that. haha

then came the shark-feeding time.

my dad's very in touch with Nature you see. haha.

The End. [:

the lion, the lamb and the wolf.

2009-12-03T15:26:37Z

i have this major aching [no, not in my heart -.-] in my neck that plagues me ever so often it's crazy. it's even complemented with a splitting headache everytime. amazing. eurgh. nonetheless, because and just because the end of my A Levels [sorry Fefe & Kim, all the best! ] has come, i am going to mark it with a proper entry, gloria-style [omg lol] - a whole post dedicated to my favourite Edward that is NOT, i repeat, NOT Robert Pattinson. oh and for the record, it's Team Edward+Jacob for me.

now, i don't know where to start really so im just going to ramble on.
if youre going to go on reading thennn, here goes.

the entire Twilight saga has soooo much sentimental value to me i can't even begin to say how much. i know it sounds right silly but idk. reading/ seeing all these new-found fans of Edward and Jacob is putting me off. i wasn't even genuinely excited to watch the movie tbh. it's like watching your favourite underground artist/ band gain popularity over time. while you're proud that they're gaining fame in doing what they love doing, you dread the day they become mainstreamed. for me, it's like that special spark is lost, or perhaps i should say, the light from my personal moon is clouded.

then came the movie that had received mixed reviews. fans of the book found the film version of it slipshod. newbies got drawn into the whole fad, hoping onto the bandwagon like how most people do when it comes to fashion trends.
[okay fuck. my neck is reallyyyy bothering me.]

right, the movie. Twilight was a disappointment and i must say that New Moon is, too. but comparing both side-by-side, New Moon wins hands down thanks to the whole animation and sound-effects of my fluffy Quileutes in La Push. hah. of couse i would have highhh expectations of the film seeing how i've read and loveeee the series. i mean, a movie is confined to a screen time of about what, 2-ish hours? i can't compare a novel to a film can i? so, factoring that in, i guess New Moon wasn't that bad huh.

though i do admit, i have issues with the producers/ directors' portrayal of certain things. firstly, was there really no other way they could have shot the "October, November, December" scene better? it was the part that hit me with a flood of emotions and to watch the movie and feel absolutely nothing, no heart wrench was well, a disappointment. then again, i have no smart-aleck offers or suggestions to which they could have shot it better so i better shut up [hah already stated my grief. {:] in case i get anonymous hate-comments on here again which would warrant another post about how much it had affected me blah blah. but i digress! lol.

another little grouse. Edward Cullen is a vampire! that said, he is supposed to be looking good ALL THE TIME. he is supposed to possess some other-worldly ethereal beauty that transcends normalcy. so why does he Robert Pattinson look half-assed like, half the time. ): i mean, his character in this particular story-line(?) already makes girls go "Team Jacob!". but instead of making him look like a respectable mouth-watering Edward Cullen, he ended up looking like a wreck. sigh-de-sigh-sigh.

but i guess this entry is long enough as i had promised so i am going to end here. Netball training again tomorrow after what seems like forever. time to work those fats into muscle again. {: oh on a totally random note, LOOK AT THE MOON. <3

just a thought.

2009-11-30T12:48:08Z

have you ever felt like whatever you were feeling, whether guilt, love, euphoria, anger, missing, sadness, adoration, emptiness, you felt so strongly that it knocks the breath out of your lungs? you feel like something within is ripping you apart with such force. an intangible force that can't be stopped or contained by anyone or anything.

bad dream(s)?

2009-11-30T04:00:29Z

again, i woke up in the middle of the night, crying. lol. so fascinating.
i'd dreamt that my Dad had another family. like, a whole new proper family with kids my age. [creepy] and in the dreammm, every ounce of respect i had of him just flew out the window and lost in the oceans then. i remember i was trying hard not to cry in the dream in the car and he saw and said something about there's nothing to cry over? the next thing i knew i was at some void deck bawling my eyes out. -.-

that aside, ive been dreaming about Prom and Runway a couple of times now idk why. lol. once i'd dreamt that i'd turned up at Prom [it was held at some theatre???] at the table without having any knowledge of how i got there. i was so convinced it was real though cause i asked whoever next to me to pinch/ slap me and i thinkkk i felt pain? *shrugs. lol. and then last night, i'd dreamt that Prom was at some void deck and i was wearing a black tee with a black tutu skirt. LOL right! then i dreamt that it was the day of Runway and Adeline was looking for me. weirdd. anyway, TPJC Runway's postoned till end of Term 1, 2010.

i want to meet

2009-11-29T16:20:31Z

pretty boys. without an inflated ego and unafraid to cry.

the mental state of the middle-person.

2009-11-26T17:14:07Z

idk how i do it but i seem to let myself get in pretty tight spots pretty often.
either that i dont ever learn my lesson, or im just extremely dumb. i think it's both.

Los Angeles babyyyy.

2009-11-24T12:21:14Z

okay it's settled. we are heading for Los Angeles next month for 3 weeks. excited muchhh! disneyland, yay. shopping, hip hip horray please. haha. okay so ive no idea what to expect of the weather, the flight, the people. ive no idea what to pack, where to go, what to wear. so yes im gonna need some help, anyone? haha

i really hope i dont freeze to death there. its gonna be winter and all and im one who can take the heat more than the cold so. what will i be needing clothes-wiseeeee? and what to get back for whom? and should i bring my macbook? i honestly cant care less about the food there. if it's a meat-fest, so be it. i wouldnt starve to death anyways. i'd just come back a couple pounds lighter [please please?] instead of like, 10 pounds heavier [god nooooo i'd just die]. but yeah, can you tell im excited? {:

Park Jaebeom <3

2009-11-22T02:47:01Z

the empty spot. the empty vocals not replaced.

Daul Kim found dead. DDD:!

2009-11-20T01:47:06Z

[i add, TOP-model.] Model Daul Kim was found dead in Paris this morning, her agents at Next confirm. "She was a top model and a great friend to all of us at Next. Please respect her family’s privacy at this time of sadness. We will all miss her very much," they said in a statement. The cause of death remains unknown at this time but a source tells the Cut the 20-year-old committed suicide. She will be missed. -nymag

protection covered. (Y)

2009-11-12T09:13:44Z

ChooWeiKiong ♥ says: stay away from him. lol. if he do anything tell me. i beat him
gloria why can't anybody hear when the thunder disappears and the sun breaks free? says: are you being protective of me now?
ChooWeiKiong ♥ says: not good uh. aiya anything jus find me k

okay so i dont get shite or harrassed or whatever from anyone in school but, how cute is that! my Primary 3 crush lehhh. hahaha.

Hallelujah for Poverty! NOT.

2009-11-11T07:11:51Z

H1 General Paper wasnt as bad as i'd thought it would be, thank God. considering the damage done during yesterday's H2 Math Paper 1, not being able to finish my paper today would've destroyed me. okay maybe not as drastic but whatever. Math was horribleee! WAS. im going to kick arse for Paper 2 tomorrow wooo. :D

but really, why did the world choose to do Poverty?! when i saw the question i was thinking omg yay poverty my favourite! its the one issue i have the heart for writing so obviously, i chose it. the question on Fashion was well tempting. so i was feeling good seeing how i completed the essay AND wrote 4 pages which is pretty long for me. (Y) and then. i heard everywhere around me, everyone did poverty. i was crushed and was very much convinced i should have done Fashion la omg. sadded ttm. even Maddy did poverty [no offence its just that im awful intimidated by her lol] and i just felt like. pfft. but ah well. all's done with!

time to look forward to Math on Friday + the whole of the next week + Literature Paper 4 and then *cue song* freedommmm~

recover quick Onew Oppa!

2009-11-09T13:42:02Z

I WANT TO GIVE JONG HYUN OPPA A HUGEEEEEEEE HUG.
they look so lost here. ): curse you H1N1 for infecting both of themmm. TSK.

but you get to hear gorgeous Minho sing <333

korean boys <3

2009-11-06T13:26:06Z

im a little embarrassed and i'd never thought i'd say this but. It. Is. Official.
I AM IN LOVE WITH SHINEE. fangirl-dom wooooo HAHAHA.

thenicestthings

2009-11-03T12:42:25Z

"hey really like your new hairdo, you look different! [:"
but all that's different is that i'd let my fringe down!
"no! your hair used to be different? dont tell me i've been hallucinating! haha but i dont know something about you seem different today."
difinitely hallucinating {:
"nooooo. im not im not! haha yea but you look nice anyways."

generally, i feel like i dont take compliments very well but it's always nice to have someone make you feel good about yourself once in a while yes? especially so when all you did was to turn up in school yourself, no make-up, no fretting over what you wear, nothing but yourself like any other day. definitely made me smile. [:

Ring Diggi Ding Ding Ding

2009-10-30T11:38:14Z

so today wasn't a productive day. AT ALL. and i have like. 10 days the start of my As. ohmyfuckinggod. i cant wait for it to be over. 3 hours Othello session in school tomorrow. (Y) oh shite. there's math tuition. pfft. i need to get back to Math, revice Econs, re-read Geog and practise for GP. full day of studying on Monday with Vernon+Jolene.

anyway, met up with Charmaine Tan Ping Pong today after soo long(!) with the girls for breakfast at Macs. hotcakes. (Y) the next time we'd hang, we'd prolly be crashing her lectures at TP. haha. cant wait cant wait.

but really, the point of the post isssss. I CAUGHT SHINEE's COMEBACK PERFORMANCE ON MUSIC BANK TODAY!!! i think it was their second performance of Ring Ding Dong on MB cause they were wearing diff clothes from that i saw on Youtube. haha. i was trying to stop grinning in front of the telly in case my dad thought i was mad. haha. best part? there were instances where Minho was right at the front instead of Taemin/ JongHyun la omg. <333 TTM. hahaha. and for the record, the won today's Comeback performance, beating SS501 and godknowswho. (Y) oh and and and, I NOW HAVE THEIR SECOND MINI ALBUM, ROMEO. so happy please! :DDD

okay i need to study Complex Numbers ++ now. ttyl! {:

Happy 20th Birthday niaoo!

2009-10-29T15:29:39Z

ps. you might want to dig amongst the sweets in the jar. {:

money matters.

2009-10-25T13:30:37Z

Crystal and I need to attend Shopaholics Anonymous i swear. we have less than $10 to our name. like literally. no savings no nothing. (Y) shitee.
i really hate my lack of chest la omg. ))):
anyway, random thought. i was thinking about being bitches [lol right!] and then i had [sort of] and epiphany! in the future when we've lost sight of our dreams/ got sick of life or our shitty jobs, Ely, Pamo, Jarred and I can meet up and set up our very own school! for bitches, that is. of course, bitches dont get to be a part of it. losers who gets bullied for not being pretty/ sporty/ slim/ cool enough gets "disciplined" here. there's gonna be make-overs and lessons and shite... HAHAHA. if only i put such imagination to good use in my poetry comparison paper. lol.

and i must tell the world this: I NOW HAVE MY KOREAN SONGS IN MY ZEN!!! :DDD! haha ive been listening to them the entire dayyy. i wouldve accompanied Crystal all the way to the other end of the island, to NTU, if not for these songs. i wanted to have a train+bus ride with my Zen and my Shinee+2PM+Kara+SNSD+G-Dragon+2NE1. HAHAHA. eh shut up, dont judge me. {:

be nice, spend. [:

2009-10-18T13:37:04Z

my sister's intriguingly messy room invites you in..